The by support@fanbox.

I have always wanted to be a. Before anyone had written a series of books and been on Oprah and charged 800 dollars for workshops, I knew that something like the Rules Girl existed, and that I wasn't it. These were the girls who guys chased, who they fell hard for, who they couldn't let go of long after the relationship was over. These were the girls who got loved.

I knew because I was the girl who didn't get loved. I spent my life thinking about boys. I watched for them wherever I went. I dressed for them. I gave up everything for them, and would have given up even more. Yet, I knew this was why I wasn't loved. Boys didn't love me because I liked them too much. I needed them too much. I knew this because I had seen the movies and TV shows that reminded me regularly that this was true. The girl who didn't like the boy, the one who couldn't be bothered - she was the one the leading man always wanted the most.

A perfect example of this can be found on the reality show . Kristin Cavallari gets whatever guy she wants. She's beautiful and skinny, sure. But so is Audrina, yet Justin Bobby keeps her at arms length for years, but when Kristin enters his life, he's ready to commit. And so was Lauren Conrad, who, back when The Hills was , was in love with Stephen, who only seemed to have eyes for Kristin, even though