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Do you know what the feeling to be hated is?

I hope no!

And I’m sure you don’t want to know it.... not from a personal experience...

But I know what it is.... I’m not proud of it, but I know. It’s a part of my life, part of my memories. It’s something, which I have to live with...

.... something, which I’d like to forget, but it comes again and again in my night mares...

Yes, I know that I didn’t deserve that hatred. I know that I received the worse negatives from that ones, which I tried to help, to protect....

But it doesn’t change anything...

I know that I received that massive hatred from someone, who I loved..., from people, who I was carried about, who I liked....

But it doesn’t change anything.....

I’m still seeing that hatred, hidden behind fake smiles.... friendly words.... sometimes even masked as lovely gestures....

I’m still

23 Comments

it's too dark, but.... sometimes the life is dark...

19 months ago

life is not so dark as you try to describe it. You just behave as a victim. it's not good. if people you love feel hatred for you, just think why, what you did for it. Because deep-rooted hatred is veeeeery powerful emotion and it didn't come from nothing. you should analyze yo behavior, what's wrong you do for people you love. Just try to feel what other people feel in a way you act.

19 months ago

Well, it's not so dark
it's darker...
But what is the dark? Maybe another possibility to understand how important the light is.
We will not enjoy the sun so much, if there is no night.
We will not enjoy the sunny days, if there is no rain.
The life is full of different things - good, bad, sweet, bitter.
Everything has own value.
And we should appreciate every one.
But not to forget.
Just to accept.
Every part of our lives - good or bad, celebration or tragedy - means something. And is important.
These are our lessons, which we need to learn.
There is no regret.
Just knowledge...

19 months ago

Nice useful post i liked it thanks for shearing

19 months ago

ITS FEELING.& HAPPENINGS. NICE POST

19 months ago

it seems u enjoy of being hated. of cause, why not? people are different, some of them can attract attention and to feel their value only when others hate them. the root of this behavior grows from childhood. it's just a way of manipulation, a way to get love. because the hate is just the other side of the coin. Being children we all need to be loved by parents. But our parents not always can give us enough love- they are busy at job, home, other children and so on. and a child try different manipulations to get more love and care from parents. Manipulations can be different- illness, to make parents angry, to press on guilt and many more. Maybe you could get attention from parents only when you did something wrong, they became very angry, shouted at you, punished you... i don't know, but you know. Child doesn't understand exactly how it feels love, and can substitute it for another feeling. We are growing and it growing with us and not parents only, but other people involves in our scenario of "getting love".
So, analyze yo behavior and try to see yo manipulations from childhood. Divide yo emotions- hate and anger are hate and anger, they are not love. The joy is a joy, the jealousy is a jealousy and so on. I'm agree with you that we need all kind of feelings, because we understand life and ourselves through our emotions, not only by mind.
improve yo spirit instead of training yo good memory and acceptance of wrong acts and you will see the light of love. I wish you to find a way :)

19 months ago

nice post ---real

19 months ago

dear nice post

18 months ago

No, Irina, I don't enjoy it. It's strange, that you have this impression.
It's a feeling, which hurts a lot and hides all the happiness around... believe me, there is no any reason to enjoy it.
In fact, it's difficult to live with this... or (to be more clear) - it's difficult to live normal with it.
But, as I wrote in the post - if something is a part of your life, it is. You can't change the past. You have to accept it, no matter of your wish... and just to live with it...
The man is an amazing creature: the man can accept the unacceptable, the man can forgive the unforgiven, we are stronger than we think, we are.
The strong people accept the difficult things and live with it. Other just try to forget and delete a part of their lives.

17 months ago

Why were (are?) you hated, Vicky? Was that racist? I want to know about it... I'd like to talk to you.

Everyone has those days. The only difference is that it comes in different forms to all of us. It came to you in the form of hatred... which you might be thinking is the worst form. hahahaha. Nothing wrong with that, it's a natural human behavior. Now you can't go back in time and change everything for good, so don't run away from it... that won't let you heal ever. Stand up and accept it- yes you are the hated one - yes you are the one despised - but that can be changed. Take advantage of the nature's way of revenge. The higher powers will definitely give you a chance to take revenge on life.

Be hated - Be contended

17 months ago

We have to love our scars - they are our memories...

17 months ago

I don't hate, Slighty! I don't have a time to hate the people, who hate me, because I'm busy loving the people, who love me.
But the hatred is a negative energy, which you can feel... even if you are not on the place with these people...
Well, it's a past... everybody has memories, which are not from the category of pink bubbles, flying birds and colourful butterflies.... But this one, which doesn't kill us, is making us stronger, isn't it?

17 months ago

sometimes hate is the other side of love- if you had relationship for example with too much feelings and did something very bad then for person who loved you. it's one story.
But sometimes people hate because they have no love in their hearts at all. They just hate, without reason. It's another story. We can only pray for them- they could find their way.
The 1st story is consequences of yo behavior and you should analyse it and correct yo mistakes, but not just accept them. If you did something wrong for people who loved you, you should find a courage improve the situation.
The 2nd story- is not yo story at all, God will help them only.

16 months ago

it's the second story, Irina.. that because it is so sad...
yes, I should pray for them, but I'm not sure that I'm strong enough for it... at the moment just I'm trying to be.
the only cure is - to concentrate in the present moment, but not forget the past and to be more careful whom you allow to enter in your life:)

16 months ago

and another thing - some people hate, because they don't know how to love... it's even more tragic

16 months ago

like it very much

16 months ago

Sometimes it's just part of our life.....not always love and light but also hate and darkness will be experienced along the way....

16 months ago

I know the feeling..:((
I did something for her and them but it turned out that I am the one wrong..I was the one trying to fix the mis understanding between them and her but at the end I was the one being hated..
In life, there are some people whose mind are so crooked...They tend to hate you because they don't want to listen to you...
Anyway, try to avoid those people who hated you without valid reasons..:(((

14 months ago

sometimes we can't avoid them, Vian
they come in our lives as lessons
and come again till we don't understand this lesson

14 months ago

WOW VICKY... WE ALL HAVE TO GO THROUGH LIFE WITH LESSONS TO LEARN....WE ALL HAVE SOME FORMOF BURDEN TO BEAR....BUT WHAT THE HECK LIFE HAS TO GO ON.... EXCELLENT SHARING VICKY...... I LOVE YOU :-)

14 months ago