That love was wrong(kinda long)

I know this guy from my childhood,we used to play together and we became friends.i know him about 8 years he was very funny guy and we always been together everywhere.we are in a large family friends group
that going everywhere together for outing,party...these kinda stuff.
Everybody in our group knew that me and
him always stick together and they always could find us together.it was great when we were best friends,we always used to sit next to each other laughing,joking and make fun of everything,we always had great time together only sometimes argue for little things that would solve quickly.

Times passed and i had different feelings for him which i knew he also had the same feelings because of his weird behavior.but it was kinda hard for me to accept it because I'm 19 and he is younger than me,and i was asking my self why would i have different feelings for him!he's younger than me and i ashamed
to show my feelings and because of my pride i always pretended that there's nothing more than a friendship between us.

But it was also hard for me when he was talking with me about his girlfriend which he broke up with only after short relationship.

I remember it was a party at their villa and we were all there together(family friends group),having fun like always.at the end of night i don't know what came up to me that i asked him:
is there anything you ever wanted to tell me but you couldn't?

He looked in my eyes with smile on his face and said:yes but what about you?i said:yes but i asked first then you should answer first....so and on and on.everybody were leaving and my family were waiting for me so we said goodbye and we couldn't say anything about that to each other.

When i got home i received text from him,he said:if I'm thinking about what