I have given up

I have given up. I know it is not the politically correct thing to do. You see I have taken all the shit life has thrown at me. Now I am covered in it. I can't dig my way out. No magic pill, no magic god, no magic fairy dust, no self. Tried very hard to fit the mold of what the world expected from me. Never could. Was never smart enough, thin enough, was too opinionated, big butt, chubby, full figured, did not look like Barbie, did not have blond hair, blue eyes, was dark skinned, brown eyes,