everything else is BONUS

I am going back to the latest news and stories about the New World Order and the state of the world today.  I felt so much compassion for the mission of Kony 2012 that I did not search or wait til the dust settled for the critics to state what they feel towards it.  Mistake

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As Christmas and New Year's comes closer and closer, I examine again in my heart what do I really want for Christmas.

When I think about the "best Christmas ever," two occasions come to the forefront of my mind.  

Growing up I was bullied.  Although I had a happy childhood and a good education, people still had a tendancy to be mean and people had nothing better to do in their down time in school so they made fun of people.  I was one of those people that people made fun of.  From then on, I had a hard time keeping a smile on my face and soon found myself in states of depression.

Depression ruled my life until I was 26.  Looking back on it, I am amazed at how much I accomplished and how much I survived life and what I was going through.  But today I will not talk about my sob story.  I will talk about how I overcame it.  

At 24 I was told by someone that I should meditate more often and listen to my intuition.  I didn't take this "assignment" to heart until I quit my first real job and needed to destress.  It was then I realized that I didn't love myself and that I was very, very insecure.  So I started two things:  I started paying attention to my appearance and I started to meditate.

First things first.  My appearance and how I was presenting myself to the world was descent.  However, I wasn't doing enough for myself to make me feel loved.  Though I had a boyfriend at